I, Abdul Basit Ahmad do hereby declare that this moment 0418 hours on the Thursday, 2nd of April is the happiest moment that I have or probably ever experience.
It so came to pass that I entered my room, arguing with myself that the argument that I had just had with myself about the wasps was actually an argument that I had with the lizard that stands guard on my windowsill, just above and outside my room.
A few minutes into the argument I realise that the song Ripple is playing on my laptop at a rather low volume.
Infact Garcia is singing the chorus, which goes like,
Ripple in still water,
when there is no pebble tossed,
nor wind to blow.
The sequence of subtle realizations that I had about my argument when viewed from the frame of Jerry Garcia’s poem, is probably one of the starkest realizations I have had.
This profound realization is what I implied when I talked about aesthetics in science. Surely the starker your realization, the truth must be as abstark.
Now that I have woken up again, I don’t feel any specially happy or anything. I wonder why is it that I keep desiring something so ephemeral as happiness. It reminds me of the argument I had with naresh about “giving back to community”. According to him, everyone of us IItians should feel the need for fairness and realize how much public money has been spent on making engineers out of us. Ergo, on realizing this we should give back fairly to the community(and the nation) and the first step in that is staying back in India and working here.
I am sorry, even to I can see this fairness and why one should feel it. I donot feel it myself. So maybe I am just some cretin.
I also realise that there have been moments before in my life when I have declared that this is the happiest that I will ever be. And then someone, usually my mother would interject and say, that I have my whole life ahead of me. Which I still do. Lets just call it growing up then. The realization that you’ll never be as happy and careless and free as you have been.
Freedom is the one thing that I value the most. That one must have freedom is usually my only argument for doing a lot of the stuff that I do. I realise that the view that I have of freedom is very careless in the sense it totally ignores the rest of humanity. But then do I really have to worry about them all? When I can hardly think for myself.
No, you don’t have to.
And the best you can serve your poor poor community is by doing what you feel is the best thing for you to do – might make you seem like cretin but butterly effects are everywhere. Anyway, you are in no position to give anything back to the community right now even if you wanted to do so consciously – first stand up on your own feet and then think of charity if you want to.
Anyway, there should be no obligations to return anything – if you do turn out to be a bastard and return no favours, bad luck for those poor people.
I didn’t really say that it was the first step
Anyway, it’s been too long since we had that discussion and seeing that I’ve forgotten the gory details of its outcome myself, I’ve been just as callous… So, let’s just say grunged is right and call it off. D:
yeah and don’t forget that grunged is always right. mad props to grunged
always nice to hear that
now that my ends are over i have to time finally to browse other ppls blogs and update my own too….
yeyeye! mera bhi blog dekho! mera bhi blog dekho! dekho na!
btw, this doesn’t mean that one should throw in the towel and hang up the boots..the only bottomline is that life shouldn’t suck, do the thing which makes your life least suckful.
yeah right…
and here i am being respectfully sarcastic because i just love you chooo much